{"id":21260,"date":"2012-04-05T22:34:25","date_gmt":"2012-04-06T02:34:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/static\/?p=21260"},"modified":"2012-04-05T22:51:07","modified_gmt":"2012-04-06T02:51:07","slug":"last-night-i-dreamed-i-killed-a-man-italy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/2012\/last-night-i-dreamed-i-killed-a-man-italy\/","title":{"rendered":"“Last night I dreamed I killed a man” (Italy)"},"content":{"rendered":"

A WTS victim agonizes over the immense & irreplaceable losses in her life<\/h3>\n

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\u2014Gail Mair<\/a><\/p>\n

Last night I dreamed I killed a man. \u00a0A massively fat man, four times my size, who was cannibalizing my car. \u00a0He saw me watching him, grabbed me and carried me to a nearby workshop where I noticed the knife among other tools on the work bench.<\/p>\n

He didn’t bleed much but he fell and I was free.<\/p>\n

There was another smaller, less dramatic death in my dream\u2014a young girl I knew vaguely.<\/p>\n

I’m writing this now because of that dream.<\/p>\n

We abandoned our home in Tuscany over four years ago. \u00a0We had moved there from Germany in October 2006, six weeks before the turbines started operating and the horror trip began.<\/p>\n

At first I ignored the new, unpleasant sensations; I thought I was just sickening from something and it would blow over. \u00a0This did not happen and the symptoms dragged on and on, worsening each day. \u00a0Insomnia, tinnitus, palpitations, panic attacks, nausea and depression.<\/p>\n

I had never suffered from these symptoms before, except that I was often carsick as a child. \u00a0I wasn’t even nauseous in pregnancy.<\/p>\n

I was afraid to come home or be at home; the drone inside the house set my body’s cells in motion\u2014a frightening, weirdly alienating sensation.<\/p>\n

I have always had a strong sense of the bond between my physical and spiritual self. \u00a0While I was living in that house both went awry.<\/p>\n

I began to wonder if the turbines had anything to do with it and started to make notes. \u00a0(See my Italian Windfarm Diary<\/em> on National Wind Watch<\/a>.) \u00a0All through 2007, my husband’s memory and his ability to concentrate were severely affected and our marriage was put to one of the most critical tests it had ever undergone. \u00a0We decided that the only way to save ourselves was to give up everything we had worked for and abandon the house. \u00a0This was no spur-of-the-moment decision, but one squeezed from us by the circumstances.<\/p>\n

Long before we left, I had been to see the mayor of our village, who ridiculed my situation, declaring, “It is your sacrifice for Italy.” \u00a0I also went to a psychiatrist, who offered me tranquillizers.<\/p>\n

I told everyone what I was suffering, they saw me distraught, but few understood\u2014the turbines were not in their backyards. My words met with scepticism, disbelief and, before we moved out in 2008, with downright suspicion.<\/p>\n

“This woman is mad,” they said. \u00a0How right they were: \u00a0I was, till I moved away, taking with me only a small carload of books and some clothes. \u00a0My husband followed a few weeks later.<\/p>\n

It took me a few weeks to recover in the refuge offered by some of my husband’s relatives, although since then I have not been troubled by any of the distressing symptoms I had in Tuscany\u2014as long as I stay away from the turbines.<\/p>\n

The ridicule and suspicion we were subjected to was the hardest thing to bear, so we started researching in an effort to understand what was happening. \u00a0Getting back on our feet financially has cost us another three years of our lives, but gradually we’re making it\u2014not easy at the respective ages of nearly 57 and 64.<\/p>\n

Although the house in Tuscany has been valued at zero euros, we will have to invest yet more money in it so that if, at any time, we do have the possibility to sell, we can. \u00a0The laws have changed in the last few years so we are now obliged to put in a completely new heating system to conform to the norms which are in force. \u00a0We are working on this at present and we’ve also just heard from an architect that our windows, approved less than ten years ago, are too small\u2014another massive set-back if verified. \u00a0I’m at the end of my tether. \u00a0We are also still collecting data\u2014for our lawyer.<\/p>\n

We’d often thought about taking the IWT company to court, but it has changed hands several times since the installation went into operation, so who should we sue for our rights? \u00a0It was impossible for us to find out, and many people in the surrounding area were not interested in us finding out. \u00a0We had spent all our savings on the house and the cost of a lawyer was prohibitive, besides which we were hesitant about contacting any of the lawyers in the vicinity.<\/p>\n

It was our friend, whose home is just 100m (roughly 300 feet) from the nearest turbine, who went to see the local Count to ask if he could help. \u00a0The Count had opposed the IWT since before they were built, saying they were illegal. \u00a0He had even won one court case against them, but this ruling was later overthrown by the company in collaboration with the local town council. \u00a0The view in front of his “listed” castle has been devastated by the turbines, and he is still fighting for justice.<\/p>\n

Realizing that we had a different, possibly crucial, angle on the situation, the Count agreed to take us on board and pay for a class action, for which we are extremely grateful. \u00a0His lawyer is not based in Tuscany. \u00a0Since then we have taken a back seat; I do not understand the workings of justice in Italy. \u00a0I know only that our lawyer has to prove that we have a legal case for compensation and I am confident that he will do so. \u00a0Last year the case was adjourned pending new evidence, and it has been adjourned again, while the judges deliberate if more evidence will be admitted to the proceedings. \u00a0The IWT company has opposed this but our lawyer has insisted. \u00a0We are waiting for the outcome.<\/p>\n

It is in this limbo that I had my dream. \u00a0The “smaller” death is my right to freedom of speech. \u00a0The violent death depicts the fall of the giant IWT company. \u00a0I know that if an out-of-court settlement is reached that I will be gagged, and my conscience is plaguing me as to whether I can live with this “small” death. \u00a0When I think of my children, who will also be robbed of what we were hoping to leave them, I believe I can.<\/p>\n

My thanks go to all the people, too many to name individually, who have helped us understand what we have been through and that we have a right to compensation for the injustice done\u2014an injustice which is still being perpetrated all over the world with impunity.<\/p>\n

This is also for those who have been forced to sign the infamous “confidentiality clause” as the price for their rightful compensation. \u00a0My profound admiration goes to the few who have had the courage to challenge that clause.<\/p>\n

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A WTS victim agonizes over the immense & irreplaceable losses in her life \u2014Gail Mair Last night I dreamed I killed a man. \u00a0A massively fat man, four times my size, who was cannibalizing my car. \u00a0He saw me watching him, grabbed me and carried me to a nearby workshop where I noticed the knife among other tools on the work bench. He didn’t bleed much but he fell and I was free. There was another smaller, less dramatic death in my dream\u2014a young girl I knew vaguely. I’m writing this now because of that dream. We abandoned our home in Tuscany over four years ago. \u00a0We had moved there from Germany in October 2006, six weeks before the turbines started operating and the horror trip began. At first I ignored the new, unpleasant sensations; I thought I was just sickening from something and it would blow over. \u00a0This did not happen and the symptoms dragged on and on, worsening each day. \u00a0Insomnia, tinnitus, palpitations, panic attacks, nausea and depression. I had never suffered from these symptoms before, except that I was often carsick as a child. \u00a0I wasn’t even nauseous in pregnancy. I was afraid to come home or be at home; the drone inside the house set my body’s cells in motion\u2014a frightening, weirdly alienating sensation. I have always had a strong sense of the bond between my physical and spiritual self. \u00a0While I was living in that house both went awry. I began to wonder if the turbines had anything to do with it and started to make notes. \u00a0(See my Italian Windfarm Diary on National Wind Watch.) \u00a0All through 2007, my husband’s memory and his ability to concentrate were severely affected and our marriage was put to one of the most critical tests it had everRead More…<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[157,167,166,16],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21260"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21260"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21260\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21260"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21260"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.windturbinesyndrome.com\/static\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21260"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}